John Doe

My wife had loved the colour yellow. Just adored it. She used to say she could find yellow in everything–in the sun that split the sky into a million other colours at dawn, in the washed-out light of crescent moons, even in the flaxen hair that topped my head, long turned peppery-grey with age. I had little to offer her when we married besides cheery moods and soft smiles, so as a surprise wedding gift I painted the front door of my house bright butter yellow–oh, how she smiled and laughed when I brought her home that first night! That was many years ago now, but I can still see her in my mind’s eye. I find I can no longer remember things the way I used to, just small things. Mundane things. With her, though, they never seemed mundane. I remember the way her shoulders moved when she aired out fresh linens early in the morning, I can remember her in the garden, her hair tied back with a white bandana, tending to sunflower seeds–yellow flowers to match our yellow door. I remember the way her teeth looked when she smiled, all straight and pearly and perfect. I remember all the things about her that she forgot about me. Dementia is an ugly beast, but we never let it bring us down; I delighted in retelling our stories to her, in making new memories by reliving old ones. Forty-eight years of marriage passed blissfully until age finally took her from me. Now, I am left only with a yellow door and a field of sunflowers. The only things left that mark her time, her place, in this world.
It was four loud knocks on that front door that roused me from the dregs of a late-afternoon nap one midsummer night. It was hot, the kind of stifling heat that even a breeze can’t alleviate. Dusk had fallen, the evening star twinkling bright through the kitchen curtains, a hot, hot night that threatened to choke me when I opened the door. On the porch stood a couple, young, bedraggled, dressed in rags that betrayed too-thin frames on both of them. Naturally, I invited them inside for dinner–a remnant of an old habit of picking up broken things to fix them, bringing home strays to show them what love is. How my parents had rued me for such a drive in my early days. But I was excited to have company for a meal. It had been so very long.
Under the dirt and grim, they could not have been older than their late 20’s. Bright blue eyes shone out of the woman’s gaunt face, analyzing me from underneath shaggy black hair. The man’s hair too was black. but his eyes were so dark a brown they glittered a similar colour. I could see my reflection in them, clear as day. Looking at them made something click inside me, something protective, something attached, as if they automatically assumed the representation of a future that could have been for me, but never was; as if in their faces I could recognize the faces of the children my wife and I never managed to have. In that moment I wanted to offer them everything they so clearly needed, and then everything they wanted, and it both delighted and terrified me, because they were really just strangers, and what can strangers be to an old man living alone in a field full of sunflowers, really? Dangerous, is the answer to that question, but I lended them my trust the moment I laid eyes on them. I suppose it was pity.
While I cooked, I tried to speak with them, ask them questions, but they were so withdrawn from me that I wondered what kinds of terrible things had forced them into nomadic living. Names they would not give, and when I asked if they were hungry (a silly question, I know, but you know how it is sometimes trying to make conversation), the woman only smiled wanly at me. The man simply stared, as if he couldn’t hear me. They were strange, queer folk from the start, staying so quiet while they sat with perfect posture at my kitchen table while I bustled around them, busy as a bumblebee with dinner. Very strange, very queer, to think they would receive my hospitality like that, now that I look back on it. I remember that they both sat with their hands folded on their laps, their gazes never leaving me. Now, it is unnerving, but at the time I only remember feeling somewhat awkward under their stares, failing so miserably to make conversation. I must have appeared such a foolish old man to them, although it hardly matters now.
I served them a meal I remember having been one of the wife’s favourites, but for the life of me now I cannot recall what it was. I just know that they never touched it. They sat across my table from me and never so much as looked at the food I had served them. They just stared, silently, at me, watching every bite I took. I think I only managed half my meal before I couldn’t do it anymore, I was so self-conscious, so I packed everything up into my wife’s Tupperwares and stored them in the fridge for later. I was never keen on leftovers, but she had hated to waste food. They watched me do this with some interest, but never moved. I could feel the weight of their scrutiny, and I wished they would leave then, but I could see even in the corner of my eye that they stayed perfectly still. I felt rather than heard myself speak.
“I usually turn the television on after dinner. I…I hope that’s alright by you.”
They made no response. It felt like it took years for the television to turn on. The screen came to life in slow motion, turning from black to gray to unearthly blue. It gave me time to feel every pinprick of those two unmoving stares along my spine. Everything felt dreamlike around me–the shining of the stars outside, the movement of the curtains in the hot, heavy air around the open windows, the low buzzing of the lightbulbs humming in the kitchen behind me–until the television snapped me out of my reverie with it’s harsh, cacophonous voices. As usual, it was the news programme.
“…under no circumstances should you answer the door tonight,” the anchor was saying, “they are not what they seem.”
My eyes were fixated on the screen, on the anchor’s face. He always does the evening news, that chap, but I can’t remember his name. He’s young, but that night his face was full of worry lines, and I suddenly had the impression he was much older than he had always looked onscreen.
“Whatever you do,” he cautioned me, “don’t let them inside.”
I looked away the, catching my own reflection in the glass of the window. Outside, sunflowers danced in the dark, and little spherical lights my wife has wound around the porch railing glowed yellow. I looked comical superimposed on that quiet scene, television remote clutched in calloused, blue-veined hands and a checked shirt tucked tightly into my trousers. I was floating there, watching the sunflowers wave in and out and in and out of my transparent chest. And then, behind me, I could see my guests, standing now, still staring, their mouths both gaping open. The reflection made it look like their mouths kept growing longer, almost to an inhuman size, like the way snakes unhinge their jaws to eat bird’s eggs.
I turned, slowly, my stomach knotting itself over and over again so tightly I could feel it making its way up into my throat. I thought then it might choke me.
They were already upon me when I faced them, moving with deadly silence. My face was mere inches from hers, her eye sockets all empty and black and hollow, her mouth a cavernous one lined with tiny clear teeth shaped like ice cream cones. The only noise she made was a quiet hissing, constant, as if she were taking one long inhale. I thought she might scream, but she just kept hissing. I couldn’t make a sound, I couldn’t even scream, and I felt my jaw go slack as my shoulders tensed and the remote fell from my hands to the floor.
She put a grimy hand on my face, thumb on my chin and fingers on my temple. Her mouth met my other temple, sinking tiny sharp points into my cranium. I felt the blood trickle sticky down my face, blurring in my eyes, as she pulled something smoothe out of my head. It felt like she was unfolding all the gyri of my brain and sucking them out of the hole in my head. I know all about the brain, you know, from when my wife was sick. Her mouth felt wet, and I could only think that it was my grey matter dripping down her chin and onto my carpet. The pain was unbearable. Stars exploded behind my eyes, excruciating bright light that dizzied me, and after that I could only see blackness. I would have collapsed if she hadn’t been holding me up. How she had so much strength in one arm, I will never know. She was so small, so slight…so fragile a thing.
I did lose consciousness. The shock, it must have been. I woke up with my face in the carpet, breathing in my own coagulating blood. I can’t remember what colour the carpet used to be, but it was rusty when I woke up. Everything I looked at bent around me as if I was looking at it all through the bottom of a bottle–all shaky and almost circular. I was so dazed, I couldn’t remember my name or where I was or how old I am–all things I used to ask my wife every morning when she woke up. I was afraid. I thought I was losing myself like she did. I could see the front door open, could see the little yellow lights paving the way down the stairs to the road, and I moved towards that, the yellow, crawling, until I was outside. I had to use the stairs and the railing to stand up. After that, I lost time. It was pitch black and I walked out into the sunflowers. I didn’t know what time it was. I still don’t know where I was trying to go. I was just…going. And then I was on the highway, walking, I don’t know how long I walked for, but I didn’t think of a single thing. It was as if I didn’t have a thing left in this head of mine.
You know, they call them “hospitals,” but there’s not much hospitable about them. I understand now. You keep us all here like animals, locked up with no freedom to do anything. You’re not helping us, you’re studying us. You’re trying to understand them. Those things that came for us and ate us and left us like this. Hollow shells. You make me tell you this story every godforsaken day and you never think about what it does to me, because it’s the only thing I remember anymore and it’s the only thing you care to know about. You never even tell me who I am. I’ll bet you don’t even know. I’m just another nameless face in this crowd to you. You treat us like your lab rats, damn you! Let me put your experiment to rest; I’ll tell you what I know to be true. Those things were here to hunt us, and they will come back for you. You people who remember them and remember me and remember what it’s like to feel sunshine on your face and hear your loved one’s voices and have hopes and dreams for the future. And then the next batch of up and comers will lock you up like me and you’ll know what it’s like to be treated like refuse. You won’t even let me sleep, you’re so afraid of losing the rest of me. You think I’ll let the rest of myself slip away and I’ll lose my value to you. Well, I’ll tell you what: maybe it’s not such a bad idea. So maybe I will let myself go.
Maybe this is the night where I say goodbye, and remember that I said it in the morning.


There is a phantom that makes his home in the dust and cobwebs of my bedroom, a poltergeist flitting in and out of sunbeams and bumping in the dark. I can hear him sigh my name in the back of my mind every day at noon; I can feel him ease down onto the arm of my chair to read over my shoulder the newspaper, and I know the door opens just a little too quickly every evening when I come home. When the pages of my book refuse to stay open, when all my houseplants begin to wither and die, or the cat goes galloping down the hallway in a random panic, I know that he is restless. His presence lingers around me, heavy like an uninvited guest, but he always welcomes me home with the open arms of an old friend.

He keeps me awake at night when he cries, terrible, awful, heaving cries, coming from the darkest corners of my bedroom. Some nights, I can feel his salt tears on my cheeks, leaving cool colourless trails down my hot heartbeat skin, whispering like autumn winds past, or his fingers trailing across the bony bumps of my hips, turning once-rosy skin blue and rotting, deadening under his airy gray touch. He sings sweet nothings of a time long ago to me in the dark hours of the morning, his voice soft as cold September rains. When I close my eyes I dream of him, his face flush with colour and the sun dancing through his eyelashes, his smile a night terror I can no longer start at. I awake, and there too is his face, grinning out of the darkness and relishing the circles of purple he puts beneath my eyes. On hot midsummer nights, he slips a knife between my shoulder blades, a sharp sliver of cold biting between my vertebrae, popping them apart and relaxing all my muscles, stinging and burning where his poison fingers probe my wounds for my bloody essence that he seeks to make his own. I wake with bruised flesh, hues of purples and blues and browns, where his hungry hands have grabbed and pulled at my limbs in an attempt to make me his.

He lives in dismal grayscale, and I in ghastly technicolour. He cannot find his place within my watercolour world. He begs me to recall his name when his hands gently caress my shoulders while I make breakfast, three syllables that tumble across the tongue in shades of red and orange. He queries after the colour of his hair while I brush my teeth in the bathroom mirror, toying with once-black tousled curls now white and streaked a grey translucence. He asks me desperately to remind him what colour was his favourite when he still lived as I change out burnt lamp lightbulbs, staring at me with empty eye sockets where once eyes so dark a brown they glittered black resided, deeper than the deepest outer space. I remember falling into those eyes for the first time, drowning in them, feeling that I could both know everything about him and yet leave him a sparkling enigma all at once if I just let them wash over me like a gentle deep-ocean wave. I floated content in the great voiding depth of those eyes, never once suspecting that they hid a raging riptide, a famished black hole, that they had trapped me as a pitcher plant traps a beetle, feeding off it for days.

On my bad days, I ignore him, and he screams at me, a terrifyingly loud and angry bass, like an upset child with the voice of a man, and he opens floodgates that force me to remember everything I push down deep inside. Our play at contented coexistence comes to a screaming halt, giving out a dying gasp of sad summer air that ushers in the cold of autumn with it. On those days, my hair turns white and falls out in clumps, more fine lines around my eyes crease, and I become older and slower and quieter while he stays young and powerful and angry. Later, the colour returns to me cheeks and lips, but I feel a little more tired inside, and in the bathroom mirror I mark the growing transparency of my own skin, knowing I will join him soon and render him content. He cannot give up his living past, and I cannot reconcile what he once was with the thing he has become. It will be the death of me.

The saturated colour of my eyes, the eyes he always loved so dear, dulls every time his fingertips trail my face, never to return. What he touches, he ruins, just as I once ruined him. And I want to leave, I want to, I want to, I want to run away and never look back and never be found and never relive his horrors again—but he is forever bound to me, holding on to that pre-summer bliss of our childhood, when we were two imperfect souls finding perfect solace in one another, reveling in what we were, what we could have been, what we planned to be.

I can bury his skeleton in my closet, but I can never outrun his ghost.



The Best Idea I Ever Had—Sew Intricate
Heaven in Hiding—Halsey
I Knew You Were Trouble—Taylor Swift
Somewhere Else—Artist VS. Poet
Million Dreams—The Greatest Showman soundtrack
Unbreakable—Artist VS Poet
Summertime Sadness (cover)—Megan Davies
Edge of Seventeen
I’m Not Dead—P!nk
Saviour—Rise Against
Devil’s Backbone—The Civil Wars
Everybody’s Fool–Evanescence
Apologize—One Republic
Dancing with a Wolf—All Time Low
This Means War—Marianas Trench
Ordinary World—Joy Williams
Man Overboard—Blink-182
Erase This—Evanescence
Ghost—Ingrid Michaelson
Outlines—All Time Low
Dearly Departed—Marianas Trench
B-Team—Marianas Trench
Young and Menace—Fall Out Boy
Eyes Like Yours–Shakira
Amnesia—5 Seconds of Summer
Nina—Ed Sheeran
Grand Theft Autumn/Where is your Boy Tonight—FOB
One More Night—Maroon 5
Outer Space/Carry On—5 Seconds of Summer
Dark Side of your Room—All Time Low
Rhythm of your Heart—Marianas Trench
I Miss You—Blink-182
Daddy Lessons—Beyonce
Don’t—Ed Sheeran
A Drop in the Ocean–Elenyi
Nightmares—All Time Low
Call Me When You’re Sober—Evanescence
End of an Era—Marianas Trench
(BONUS: The Patron Saint of Liars and Fakes—Fall Out Boy)

Pt. 2: Nostalgia.

I once was a girl that lived by the sea

In my mind,

With rattled bones of white.

That girl never ate peaches.

That girl dreamed saltwater dreams.


She would watch the waves break against the rocks

And gulls soar

Against gray skies.

Her veins were violet and gold,

Her skin was blue, and cold.


160 Minutes

“160 minutes. How long is that? Two and a half hours-ish?”
I watched you run your fingers through your hair, the cigarette glowing out of the darkness of the evening.
“I’ve had damn near 40 smokes tonight.”
Tears filled my eyes, welling and building up until I could no longer contain them. I turned away, letting them fall, weeping quietly over your squandered time. A softness at the sight of me must have over come you, for I hardly expected you to make me face you, embrace you. I hardly expected to watch you crush the pack of cigarettes in your fist so I could see, and I didn’t expect you to throw them away and claim it was because they made me cry. The stars that night shone a little brighter, I thought.

Months later, laying in the bed of a truck surrounded by blankets we would be together, watching the night sky free itself from the interferance of city lights. We would both take a drag and then blow out smoke, watching it spiral up into the stars, the glow from the embers lighting our faces in the quiet darkness.
And we couldn’t decide if we wanted to be there with each other, or some one else.

A Selection of Haikus and Tankas

Echoes of a Broken Heart:
A lone swallow’s call
Echoes through the dark ravine.
Song of broken hearts.

Snow Flower:
A small snow flower
Peeks through cold winter’s frosty ground.
Life again renewed.

Stars at Twilight:
Millions of stars
Light up summer’s twilight sky.
He enters my mind.

Silver Creeks:
Trees are crying leaves
Into a running river.
Blossoms bloom all year
Where fireflies fly slowly
On the banks of silver creeks. 

A red Autumn rose
So striking against new frost
Nostalgia grasps—
And I would not have faltered
Had I known his true intent.


This is a One Act script I wrote not even a year ago as a submission for the Alberta High School Drama  Festival Association’s (A.H.S.D.F.A) one act provincial competition this year–right now, I don’t know if it will go to stage or not. But for me, writing this script was not just a competition piece. I didn’t write it simply to put my mark a little darker on my school’s drama department. No. I wrote this as closure. One of the most traumatic events in my life occurred about a year and a half ago (so about a year before this was written) and it imprinted itself on my mind for a very long time. I realized that part of being okay is taking charge of the shadows of events like this that still haunt you; so I wrote this. This piece illustrates my experience (gratefully, not the true end of it) and how it effects people like me–how it feels to live with the shock, depression, and fear of it all is hard to put in to words. But this? This is how it feels.
A note on the script as it’s written: there are no stage directions as normally I don’t write in directions. This script is meant to be very fluid and sort of like a dance. It’s meant to move rather fast. To put it bluntly, in case due to the fact that there are no directions that it’s confusing, this play is about sexual assault and its consequences.

Rose: Do you remember innocence? Do you remember the thrill of being touched for the first time? Do you remember living?
They say that death is only the beginning. They say that life is but a beautiful illusion. They say that sleeping is like death without the commitment.

Mal: Hello.

Rose: Hello.

Mal: I’m Mal.

Rose: I’m Rose.

Mal: You’re so beautiful. Would you like to take a walk with me?

Rose: I’d love to.
And that’s how it started, on a warm day in late spring.

(1) Rose’s Mind: The perfect day for meeting someone new.

Mal: You’re such an interesting person. I’ve had such a good time speaking with you. May I see you again?

(2) Rose’s Mind: No.

(1) Rose’s Mind: Yes.

2 Rose’s Mind: He’s a stranger.

1 Rose’s Mind: Give him a chance.

Rose: I…we’ll see.

Mal: Call me when you’re free.

Rose: Of course.
You know how a person can be so beautiful on the outside, but so ugly inside? But others have such gorgeous minds, such stunning souls, and that makes them prettier on the outside? That was him—pretty on the inside.

Mal: Hello?

Rose: Hi, Mal? It’s Rose.

Both: I’m free tomorrow. Can I see you again?

1 Rose’s Mind: Come over.

2 Rose’s Mind: Just…for an hour.

1 Rose’s Mind: Maybe two.

2 Rose’s Mind: We’ll just…talk.

1 Rose’s Mind: Here’s my address.

2 Rose’s Mind: I’ll be alone.

Mal: Great. I’ll see you tomorrow.

Rose: God, is he really coming over?

1 Rose’s Mind: I’ve been alone for so long.

Rose: So long.

1 Rose’s Mind: Imagine talking.

Rose: Yes.

1 Rose’s Mind: Imagine embracing.

Rose: Yes.

1 Rose’s Mind: Imagine holding. Imagine kissing. Imagine…

Rose&2: What?

1&2: Love.

2 Rose’s Mind: No, you don’t know him. He’s a stranger.

1 Rose’s Mind: Everything has to start somewhere.

2 Rose’s Mind: Be careful.

1 Rose’s Mind: Take a chance.

Rose&Mal: Good morning.

Rose: Would you like some tea?

Mal: I drew you a picture. I’m an abstract artist.

Rose: How was your week?

Mal: I wrote you a song. I’m an aspiring musician.

Rose: Are you working, or going to school?

Mal: You’re my muse.

Rose: Are you hungry?

Mal: Yes.

Rose: May I get you something?

1&Mal: Yes.

2 Rose’s Mind: Careful.

1 Rose’s Mind: You know.

Rose: What are you–?

Mal: Quiet.

Rose: Please…

Mal: Rose. My Rose.

2 Rose’s Mind: What are you doing?

1 Rose’s Mind: Don’t

1&2: Stop.

Rose: I can’t breathe.

2 Rose’s Mind: Help…

Rose: You’re too heavy.

1 Rose’s Mind: Shut up.

2 Rose’s Mind: My chest is being crushed.

1 Rose’s Mind: Against the wall.

2 Rose’s Mind: I can’t move my arms.

1 Rose’s Mind: Against the floor.

2 Rose’s Mind: Why can’t I fight?

1 Rose’s Mind: No don’t–

2 Rose’s Mind: –Fight.

1 Rose’s Mind: What’s wrong?

Mal: Rose.

Rose: Mal.

2 Rose’s Mind: Blank out.

1 Rose’s Mind: Black out.

Rose: I can’t…breathe. Stop. You’re hurting me. Stop, that’s enough! I told you to stop!
But my voice…it’s gone. I can’t scream, I can’t. My body is numb…oh, God. What’s happening to me? And then…darkness. I can’t see! Oh God, please. Blood…on my hands. My wrists, my arms. Where is it coming from? It won’t stop. Oh, Lord, please help me. It hurts.

2 Rose’s Mind: Please, God.

1 Rose’s Mind: He isn’t there.

Mal: Rose. My Rose. My darling. I love you.

2 Rose’s Mind: You don’t know me.

Mal: I told you. Didn’t I tell you?

1&Mal: Didn’t I say you’d like it? Didn’t I say you’d say yes?

2&Rose: Yes.

Rose: A wise woman once said, “People don’t belong to people.” But I’m not sure that’s true. I wonder if it’s possible for the human soul to be trapped, kidnapped…stolen. To be a victim of forced possession. Ensnared by desire and lies. Can you really trust anything anymore? Anyone?

1 Rose’s Mind: You whore! Slut! You want to talk about victims? Possession? Lies? You want to talk about trust? How can you trust anything if you can’t even trust yourself?

2 Rose’s Mind: You are simply a victim of society.

1 Rose’s Mind: Society? What she’s done she brought on herself. Society has nothing to do with it.

2 Rose’s Mind: She was a child who knew no better! Society and its idealistic sense of dominance raped her innocence.

1 Rose’s Mind: Ah, yes, a fragile flower, used and abused.

2 Rose’s Mind: It’s not your fault.

1&Rose: Of course it’s my fault.

1 Rose’s Mind: Look! Look at what she’s done to us! We are destroyed! Ruined! You ignorant bitch, how could you?

2 Rose’s Mind: Blood.

Both: Blood.

2 Rose’s Mind: Do you see what you’ve done?

Mal&Rose: I need to talk to you.

Mal: I need to see you again.

Rose: My mother, she knows.

Mal: I miss you.

Rose: She could see the pain.

Mal: I love you.

Rose: Love me? No you don’t.

Mal: Of course I do.

2&Rose: You don’t, you never did. I was just an object of your desire.

Rose: How could you love me when you don’t know me?

2&Rose: When you never knew me?

Mal: You love me, too.

1 Rose’s Mind: Hurt him. Kill him, break his heart. Tell him the truth.

Rose: I hardly know you.

2 Rose’s Mind: You’re a stranger.

Mal: I came on too strong.

2&Rose: Yes.

1 Rose’s Mind: That’s it? That’s it? Tell him. Tell him it was all a lie. Tell him about Ben. About the pain. Tell him, tell him.

Mal: I’m sorry.

1 Rose’s Mind: Oh, he’s sorry.

2 Rose’s Mind: Enough.

Mal&Rose: Goodbye.

Rose: But that’s never the end of it. I’m just a shell now. I can’t sleep, can’t eat. Is this what it’s like to be broken?

1&Rose: We’re nothing but hollow shells. Hollow, shallow. You wake up and suddenly the face in the mirror isn’t enough, will never be enough.

Rose: It isn’t mine. No part of me is mine anymore. It all belongs to him.

1&Rose: He claimed me. Left his marks. It hurts.

Rose: Oh, God, it hurts.

Ben: What’s wrong? Won’t you tell me what’s wrong?

1 Rose’s Mind: No.

2 Rose’s Mind: Yes.

Rose: I can’t.

Ben: It’ll be okay. I promise.
I love you, Rose.

1 Rose’s Mind: Do you?

2 Rose’s Mind: Of course you do.

1 Rose’s Mind: He can’t be trusted.

Rose: I love you, too.

Mal: Freeze.

Ben: Mal, I presume?

Mal: So you’re the interference.

Ben: What did you do?

Mal: You’re the little problem.

Ben: How did you hurt her?

Mal: The tiny spider that needs squishing.

Ben&Mal: You’re the one getting in the way. You’re the one screwing everything up.

Mal: You stole something precious to me.

Ben: She was mine first.

Mal: She’s my queen, not yours.

Ben: But my hand has won this game, Mal.

Mal: That’s what you think.

1&Ben: It’s your fault, all your fault. Six feet under by your hand.

2&Rose: No

1&Ben: Yes

1 Rose’s Mind: You’re at fault! Nothing you do is right. You’re a train wreck of emotion and bad ideas. You’re selfish. Who could ever love you?

Ben: It hurts, Rose. It hurts. Look at me! Why won’t you look at me? Are you ashamed yet? Do you even miss me?
You bitch!

Rose: Shut up! Shut up! Please…I’m sorry.
But for what? I’m not sure anymore. For who? I don’t know. How can I be when I can’t even think? All the voices in my mind drown out my thoughts. They never shut up.

2 Rose’s Mind: Then don’t listen.

1&Ben: Shut up!

Rose: Enough! It’s these things, these monsters in my mind. Just like the mirror, eventually you know it’s not right, nothing’s right, and you’re destroyed. Suddenly you’re just an echo. An echo of the girl I used to be, a whisper of the past.
I don’t know what to do.

Mal: Go back to what’s familiar.

Rose: No.

Mal: Rose, my sweetheart.

Rose: What did you do to Ben? What have you done?

Mal: He was in the way of us.

Rose: He was my best friend.

Mal: You left me for him.

Rose&Ben: I was never with you.

1&Mal: Don’t you get it Rose? You’re mine, you belong to me and I’m not going to lose you again.

Rose&Ben: I belong to myself, not to anyone else, I hardly know you. You hurt me, killed me, don’t you understand?

1&Mal: I will not share you.

Rose&Ben: I’m not yours to share.

Mal: You are mine to keep!
There. See? It’s as easy as that. Isn’t it easy to revert back to what’s familiar? You’re mine now. It’s okay, baby. We’ll be okay now.

1 Rose’s Mind: Of course. We’ll be okay now.